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Elvin’s Memento in Costa Rica – Entry 02

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June 19, 2011

Day 2 of our Costa Rica mission… We went to mass, the parish was absolutely extravagant. It is interesting to know that people here wake up so early compared to Canada. Costa Ricans would wake up 5 in the morning to attend mass. They are some devout Catholics, oh man. And it’s amazing! So, farewell for now Cartago and on to the next destination.

I wish I could wake up at 5 again, meh, something that I wasn’t able to take away from Costa Rica. I remember the church being absolutely elegant though. HOW COME WE DON’T HAVE CHURCHES LIKE THAT HERE? I was falling asleep though, come on, the priest was speaking in Spanish, my Spanish is as primitive as a caveman’s English is.

Costa Rica reminds me of my motherland, the Philippines. From the farms, the cows, the stray dogs and cats. It makes me miss my hometown and seeing the culture here being very similar to mine, it just floors me.

It’s Father’s Day too! Unfortunately, I’m not in Canada to celebrate it but at least I was able to fire off a quick e-mail last night and my dad is always in my thoughts and prayers. I miss my girlfriend and my friends as well but I’m holding on and it’s been an enjoyable excursion right now.

I think this was actually when I decided that I really, really want to visit the Phils. Yeah, I’m thinking of visiting in March, and maybe stay for a month or so? Do some soul searching while having the time of my life, catching up with some old buddies, yeah? Cool.

I remember missing my dad for Father’s Day, I also remember not putting in something in this journal, we were actually on the phone that night. I think I decided not to put it in the journal because it was one of those moments that I know I’ll forever remember anyway. It was a deep and emotional conversation, I remember…

(RANDOM PLUG OF PERSONAL THOUGHTS INCOMING)

For a while (after our break up), I’ve been battling myself thinking “Did I really love my girlfriend?” Here, it is the answer, I did. I actually did. I mean, you’re miles away and you cannot really miss someone you did not love or cared for, right? Meh, love is subjective and relative, anyway. Some things, are not supposed to be actually defined, it’s just a word that would never really reflect our feelings but would only come close to. In the romantic, sappy sense though, I did love her. I love how she was always there for me in the lowest of my lows and how she would do the simple things to make me happy. She was simple, and that’s what I loved about her, but then again, that was also one of the reasons why I fell out of this so-called love, I guess you could that her simplicity was not enough for my complexity, I was looking for a bit more. Conveniently, someone in Costa Rica provided that persona, no, I’m not gonna name her, you can probably already figure it out. Did I cheat? That depends, yes and no. No, because there was nothing physical, there was no exchange of feelings. Yes, because I left myself vulnerable to developing feelings for someone else.

If you were to ask me, do I miss my ex? Yeah, I do, you think about the times you’ve had with her and actually realize that she was an amazing girlfriend, she just wasn’t the one for me, I guess. Do I even think of getting back with her? No, I do not. I’m sure as hell, she wouldn’t want to anyway after what I put her through.

Actually, funny enough, the very woman I caught feelings for, ends upĀ plateauingĀ and going on a landslide. It was best that I do not go for her and just let the feelings fade away, because I see her more as a friend, a good friend, really. And it just wouldn’t work.

Call it puppy love, because I got dogged out.

My God, we’re gonna go drive up a mountain and go through five ecosystems?! That is insane! I can’t wait to see all the diversity.

I remember this, it was so trippy, the trees were like evolving as we went up in elevation. So, did the fauna, they were changing as the altitude got higher.

Taking pictures of Tom at every site is hilarious and touching at the same time. It just speaks of how close we have gotten as a group.

Unfortunately, Tom was not able to come with us to the trip but we brought his picture with us so we can still take pictures with him. LOL

The races differ as the elevation of the mountain shifts… interesting. Indigenous ancestry perhaps?

Yeah, it was the indigenous ancestry. Costa Rica is surprisingly racially diverse.

Damn, those mono-cultured pineapples are disgusting. All the chemicals that pineapple companies (**** you Dole and Del Monte) spray just runs off to the water system when it rains. Lots and lots of environmental implications…

Cash crops, ’nuff said. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, look it up.

Durika is such an amazing community. They exemplify the things we have learned throughout the semester. They are environmentally conscious from living in a self-sustained community. They eat locally, organically. They use reusable energy and much, much more. They are even a model of social justice from fair trade practices to providing education and opportunities for many.

They actually have everything here. I honestly believe they don’t even need outside resources.

The community is filled with professionals, so they have doctors, dentists, naturopaths, etc. With those professionals they can teach the younger people of the community…

What a tight-knit community they have. It still blows me out of the water, every time I think about it. They literally had everything there, they grew it or they produced it and stuff. They only had what they needed. None of this First World stuff, well maybe the TV and the internet but whatever, lol. Back to basics, sort of. It’s interesting though, these professionals who lives in Durika, up in the mountains, they had a comfortable lifestyle back at the city but they chose to live up in the mountains. Why? No, they’re not hippies, it just gave them a greater satisfaction (more on that later).

The community just amazes me from all the hard work they have put over the years, it is paying off nicely. Definitely, even after a day, I could say I want to go back here.

We just finished dinner, and it was DELICIOUS. Now, Nigel and I are in our cabin, just chilling. It’s kind of freaky without the lights on and the drops of rain on the roof top… But for me, it definitely reminds me of my mom’s hometown in the Philippines. So, it’s kind of like a homecoming for me but this time, more independently.

Yeap, we went all vegetarian down in Costa Rica. It was absolutely delectable, I wish I could recreate their recipes, maybe, eventually. I’ll dabble in to myself turning to vegetarian a few entries later…

OMGOSH! NO LIGHTS?! There was actually none, we had candles while the ladies in the other cabin had lights, whatever, lol. It was nice, I miss the conversations Nigel and I had. More on that later too…

OH RIGHT, pictures.

Written by Elvin Madamba

October 18, 2011 at 6:47 PM

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