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Q: So, Elvin, I heard you do good?

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A: Yes sir, ma’am. And here‘s some of the teachers, mentors and community leaders to testify. :D

 

Written by Elvin Madamba

November 16, 2011 at 10:53 PM

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A Poem from 11 year old Elvin

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Try

You try to try in  finding a way

I try to try every other day

They try and try ’til the end of bay

Don’t give up! Just try, don’t listen to what anyone say

Try and try ’til you’re there in the sky

Even if it is impossible for you to fly

I tried, see what happened to me?

You see, I caught a butterfly!

Ask questions like “Why?”

And find answers ’til the end of time

Don’t ever give up, keep finding a way

Try and try until you succeed, until you’re there in the lead

Written by Elvin Madamba

November 1, 2011 at 10:00 PM

Posted in Personal

Read it and weep.

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All of you guys know me as that dude always smiling, always laughing, your resident class clown if you will. And today I’m going to take you to a trip inside my mind and soul. What truly makes Elvin Madamba, Elvin Madamba. You all know me on the surface but I’m going to take you diving with me to depths that no one knows about outside of my immediate family, my girlfriend and close friends. I know this is going to be hard on me to share but to me you guys are family too. I feel that connection, that attachment to you guys and I’m very, very privileged to open up to such wonderful people.

I’m an only child from a middle class household. I grew up in middle of the city and the countryside in the Philippines. I grew up being very close with my aunts, uncles, cousins. I had lots and lots of good friends too. We had the best neighbours, they’re the best trust me. I did well in school. My dad was the president of our residence community. We were regarded as the ‘first family’. I was like a prince! I knew everyone and everyone knew me. I enjoyed their company, they enjoyed mine. So, I knew very well the importance of family and camaraderie. We were quite celebrated, to be honest and this seems like a good picture, doesn’t it? Now, you could see where all my upbeat personality is coming from. However, my mom wasn’t too keen on this. Apparently, my dad has been too busy. She didn’t really like all the attention we were getting. With that, she started drifting away from her priorities. She started talking to strangers. My dad found out about this but he didn’t think much of it. Anyways, fast forward. We arrived inCanadalooking forward to a fresh start, a bright new future, what have you. Everything seemed great again, we were like the family we once were. However, my mom, alone, hasn’t been. She’s never satisfied, always spending money on a lot of unnecessary things, still talking to strangers on the internet. My parents would argue about it but it really wasn’t anything substantial yet. To me, I have gotten accustomed to that. Even with all the problems rising it never seemed anything that can possibly tear our family apart. But then everything changed when just sometime early 2010 rumours started circling around that my mom has a boyfriend from her office. Long story made short. We did learn that my mom was cheating on my dad. To an only son, this was absolutely devastating, I never imagined my mother having the capacity to do such a slanderous act. Even then though, I shrugged it off for the longest time. If you were to see me then, you wouldn’t know there was anything wrong. But believe me, a part of me died. Of course, my dad was devastated as well. My parents are not divorced right now but they are separated. I believe they are doing a trial separation at the moment; my mom trying to reflect and re-examine herself and my dad trying to recover.

With this experience, I grew very much as a person. Sure, I was hurt, but I knew I had to be strong. Though, my grades were slipping even reaching all time lows, I just kept going. My dad had a stroke late last year, I was in tears. I was afraid to lose my dad. But right there and then, the boy became the man. I took the situation gracefully. And people applauded me for that. My dad is recovering from his stroke and recovering from a broken heart as well, but I’ll always be there beside him to help him keep going. Those are the words that I would tell him, “pa, we need to keep going, let the pains of the past be the past”. Also, it’s quite interesting to note that this is the reason why I’m standing here right now. I wanted to make things right, so I joined my social justice and environmental initiative class, then from there I learned about this program. I knew this is what I wanted to do. I learned so much about myself in this experience.

I never held a grudge against my mom, I still love her despite the hurts that she has caused. She would always be my mother. Until this day, I’m still hopeful that we would get back to a normal family. I pray my dad forgive my mom and I pray my mom repent. But truth be said, I’m not really expecting anything anymore, and I’m just trying to live, no day spent wasted. Well, what I guess I’m trying to say is we just need to keep on GRINDing, get ready it’s a new day. As rapha puts it, once you’re on rock bottom, there is nothing but up. Carpe the heck out of this diem. Sieze the day. I don’t want to sound cheesy but, Smile though your heart is aching, smile even though it’s breaking, when there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by, if you smile through fear and sorrow, smile and maybe tomorrow, you’ll see the sun shining through for you. Light up your face with gladness, hide every trace of sadness, although a tear may ever be so near. That’s the time you must keep on trying. Smile, what’s the use of crying? You’ll find that life is still worthwhile if you just smile.

Written by Elvin Madamba

October 27, 2011 at 9:30 PM

Posted in Personal

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